Must Everything Be So Perfect?

Four years back, I had this encounter with an interesting passenger. I was lost in my own thoughts of my love life, I was struggling in my mind on whether my long-term relationship is going anywhere and what better ways can I improve the relationship to take it to the next level.

As I pushed out my cart to the first row to serve my passengers in business class, I was still in my dream world thinking about my own problems. At the same time, I was concentrating on arranging the logos of the salt and pepper condiments to be facing me, as well as the glasses too as per company guidelines and out of the blue, this particular passenger sat on the first-row turned to look at my tray arrangement, then at me and he asked, "Must everything be so perfect?"

I was lost in words and not sure what to reply to such a comment. It sounds a simple question to answer, yet I didn't want to take it lightly to anyhow reply to our passenger's questions. So I gave him a smile and thought why he asked such weird question which caught me off-guard as I didn't really expect anyone will ask any question while we preparing the trays for their food to be served. Without much further thought or delay, I quickly reply that its our usual practise for the purpose of presentation, to present a nice and neat tray to our passenger. On the other hand, I pondered on his question for a long while in my mind. It kept lingering in my mind and I felt what he said is somehow true and applicable to my life as well... "Must Everything Be So Perfect?"

Life can be so interesting, where God will send you the right people at the right time when you just needed. I truely believe God exist and He has never short-changed us.
While I was caught in a lost world to whether what should I do to my love relationship, He sent someone to alert me - a total stranger.

No one has ever asked me "Am I happy?"
Not even my family or close friends ever asked me this question when I was sharing with them lots about my love relationship.
It was asked by a total stranger whom invited me for lunch in a beautiful afternoon at a breezy Alfesco-setting bistro-cafeteria at Repulse Bay, that very same passenger who asked me "Must Everything Be So Perfect?", asked me "Am I happy?".

It was so strange...everything suddenly seems so crystal clear to me. That in fact, I was not happy at all in my love relationship cos I still can recall that my reply to him on that question was "I think so"... .

I remembered the sun was there, children running around, over-looking at the sea view and the wind brushing through my face, I felt somehow good and relieved, yet not so settled at heart...

I looked into the sky and my heart longs for the Lord to give me an answer, an answer to all my questions for my love life.

I know I want to break free and in my heart I am searching deep. Searching for what is the right steps for me to do.

I gone home and made a decision to talk to my partner. Knowing it can turn out to be the end of the long-term relationship. I decided I will do it now or never. I am a passionate person, I rather have a love life with passion or rather not have it at all.

I cannot live a life denying myself and making stories to the world that I am happy in my love life but in actual fact I am not. I want to live in truth as in following God's word and His ways.

Nobody can understand and nobody can take this portion of my life. I have to live it and I have to take up all responsibility. Just like no one can take the place of Jesus. Jesus knows very well He has to go through a very difficult time before He can be with His heavenly father again.

I was in so much pain and only God knows. After I've made my final decision to end the relationship, many friends and family were not supportive to my decision. Except one of my closest girlfriends, she supported my decision. At such a time, I realised you don't need too many friends in your life, only those who value you are worth to be your friends.

In each time of my life where hard decisions are to be made and tough life I'm going through, I learn of new things about friendships and kinships.

I pray God will continue to show His ways in my life and call me according to His purpose for the rest of my life.